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you,
you just like my oxygen, i'm dying when you're nowhere around me.

malam itu, dia bilang..
"iya acara itu hari sabtu"

gue kayak disamber petir, beneran gue nangis sejadi-jadinya.. dia ga pernah tahu betapa perasaan gue hancur malem itu.. dia minta maaf, dan gue cuma bisa nerima.
tapi udah, udah kayak gitu doang,
besoknya dia malah marah dan nganggep gue egois karena gue marah, menurut dia gue ga pantes buat kecewa karena itu semua bukan salah dia, bukan mau dia.
tapi coba dia liat di posisi gue! andai dia tau betapa kecewanya gue sama dia.

seharian gue ga sms dia, dan dia ga berusaha nyariin gue, dia cuma sms gue sekali jam 6, itupun cuma "huff"
tapi dia bener2 udah kayak oksigen gue, gue ga kuat kayak gini, akhirnya gue sms dia, tapi lagi2 dia masih marah,
gue cuma pengen liat usaha dia! gue pengen liat betapa dia kecewa sama kayak gue, dia malah cuma nyalahin dirinya ngejelek2in dirinya, bukan itu yang gue mau!
gue mau liat usaha! gue mau liat masih seberharga apa gue buat dia..
sms gue dibales aja lama banget, gimana gue mau percaya..

dan finally gue memutuskan buat merelakan dia hanya dan hanya memikirkan tugas hari sabtunya itu, gue tau dia ketua, gue tau gue ga mungkin menang dari acara itu, jadi gue ngalah dan bilang "bye"

i hope someday he'll realize how important i am. just wish..
ilove you H

R, XX

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