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tetep galau, itu yang gue rasain..
beberapa hari ini gue merasa kurang baik, ga tau kenapa, ga baik sama orang, ga baik sama tuhan, ga baik sama keluarga, dan ga baik sama diri gue sendiri.
seriously,
jadi suka nyiksa diri sendiri. haah

hemm, gimana kalo gue update nilai gue?
fisika E
kimia BC
fisika BC
lihat.. lihat saudara2 gimana gue harus mengejar nilai di uts 2 dan uas hiks..

anyway, my heart works hard lately. i know have to move on because i don't see any chance or wants from you to get back. i think i'm working on my first step on moving on, ACCEPT.
gue udah berusaha buat nerima ini semua, lo udah ga sayang gue and whatever.
dan gue ga mau maksain diri buat ga sayang atau benci sama lo, biarkan waktu aja yang mengubah itu semua. meskipun gue tau itu akan berlangsung sangat lama mengingat betapa sayangnya gue :')

somehow i know you'll get the one first like you did last time, but my question 'would she stay like i did? would she love you more than i do?'
yeah anyway i hope so, hope you get the one better than i am. really.

but for now, i hope God could whisper you one thing, that "i love you and i'm working hard to move on even i don't know if i could"

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